Back in Business

Well, the 19 day stretch of stability I had been experiencing has come to a screeching halt.

By the time Corey got home I was yelling at David Tutera on My Fair Wedding on tv, throwing the remote down and, with gritted teeth, growling, “I can’t watch this anymore!”

(Irritability. Usually I gobble that crap up.)

But hey, those 19 days were pretty spectacular. It wasn’t like I didn’t do anything too far out of my comfort zone, and it wasn’t that I got a lot done (though I did clean my particularly messy bathroom) but I felt relaxed and at ease for all 19 of those days. To me, the stretch felt a lot longer than it really was, though possibly because this was the longest stretch of stability I’ve experienced in over two years.

My anxiety has made a pretty intense comeback as well, I’ve been doing a lot of “catching up” with my breathing (what feels like I’m not getting enough air, and having to take a long deep breath to catch up).

It looks like it may be time to start up with the medication trials again. More to come on that front.

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2 responses to “Back in Business

  1. Thanks for sharing. You’re not alone. Hey, at least you had a good run. I hope the next one comes soon. Hang on. We care.!

  2. Sarah, mine that stretch for nuggets and clues to what made it work. I’m toying with a self-help approach based on fanning our exceptional healthy times into full-blown “ordinary healthy times.”

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