I completed a rather interesting project yesterday devising the percentages of time I have spent depressed, elevated, and stable over the last two years.

The result was a rather eye-opening list of numbers that helped wipe away the feeling I’ve been having lately that I am fine (more on that later).

I found these statistics by using my mood tracking tools, particularly the color band mood chart, and counting the time I spent depressed, elevated, etc., and dividing that by the total number of days for the year I had charted for.

For example, in 2011 I charted 284 days (about 2/3 of a year) and I was severely depressed for about 76 of those days, leaving me with a total of 27% of the year (time charted) being *severely* depressed (in other words, suicidal).

Here’s what I came up with:

**2011 – 284 days charted**

I spent a total of **51%** of 2011 *depressed*.

I spent a total of **14%** of that time with an *elevated mood or mania*.

I spent a total of **7%** of that time in a *mixed state*.

I spent a total of **28%** of that time* stable*.

**2012 – 365 days** **charted**

I spent a total of **32%** of 2012 *depressed*.

I spent a total of **14%** of that time with an *elevated mood or mania*.

I spent a total of **10%** of that time in a *mixed state*.

I spent a total of **44%** of that time *stable*.

My conclusion?

I was really surprised that the depression percentage was so high in 2011, but I suppose it makes sense. I was so depressed that year that I required a psychiatric inpatient hospitalization, and I was not hospitalized in 2012 (32% depression).

I also find it a little hard to accept that over the last two years I have spent less than 50% of my time feeling stable. I knew I’ve been having a hard time, but seeing the 28% and 44% really made me feel justified that, *no, I really haven’t been feeling well. *In any case, I’m glad 2012 held some improvement.

So far 2013 is off to a pretty good start, and though I have some expectations after seeing these numbers, all I can do is hope for the best and know that I am doing everything in my power to try to improve them.