Another difficult week. After forcing myself to sit at the computer this morning, I am at a total loss for what to say. My mind is racing with the fact that I have to, after all of this, contact my last employer again for them to fill out a form for me to get food stamps.
I don’t like being at the mercy of someone else, and I particularly don’t like being at the mercy of someone who has already taken the time to show me no mercy. But, I need the paperwork filled out so that I can get food stamps, so I can use that paperwork to put my student loans on forbearance. Funny world, isn’t it?
So what do you do when those pieces of the past that are the most triggering and troubling simply wont die? Is heading into this territory over and over again supposed to heal you, or does it just create more scars?
Today I don’t have the answer, but I have a hunch. Unfortunately, until this is taken care of I’ll be able to think of little else.