I’ve had several inquiries about how things have been progressing with the Geodon, so I thought I would write a quick update.
To my surprise, the reaction I’ve had to Geodon involved being flung from depression up into hypomania territory. Good when compared to depression, bad in a case like today where I have been awake for 20 hours with no apparent sign of impending sleep.
I have had a few other mild side effects, the most notable being a weird, jittery shaking that makes my teeth chatter sometimes. It leaves me feeling oddly like Cosmo Kramer.
I’ve been on it a week and a half now, and for a brief period I thought the hypomania was venturing dangerously close to mania. It backed off for a couple days, but now has been increasing in severity again.
I’ve been trying to work with my doctor on the sleep issue, but when I changed the dosage times (two a day) around I wound up in a fast-acting unconsciousness between 2 pm and 6 pm. Given the choice, I’d almost just rather not sleep.
Obviously that isn’t a solution, but I will be meeting with my doctor on Thursday, at which point this medication situation will be looked at head-on, as well as figuring out a final game plan for the end of my leave of absence from work in a week.
As a side note, there are days where it feels like I really struggle and I can look at the word “disabled” and feel comfortable with that term. Other days I look at that word and don’t feel like I can relate. Regardless, it was comforting tonight hearing the newly re-elected president saying, in front of the entire nation, that “disabled or abled, [we] can make it in this country.”