To be honest, I’m having a difficult time writing today. My thoughts and emotions are swept up in some bad news I received last week, the death of a friend, and I’ve been having a lot of trouble processing anything else.
I wanted to address this very vaguely today to explain how things have been, and since this blog is not a place where I dump out my emotions (but rather talk about them once they’ve been processed a bit) I’ve been trying to hold off on talking about it here until I have something real, heartfelt, and conclusive to say about it.
Needless to say, I’ve been experiencing a mild bout of depression and the window of things I feel comfortable writing about has been closing.
The thing that bothers me most about bipolar disorder (its inconsistency) is often its saving grace in my eyes -I have to take everything a day at a time because I don’t know how I’ll feel tomorrow. The idea that tomorrow could mean a new flip of the coin is comforting at times, so I’ll leave things at that for today and will give it another whirl tomorrow.