Tonight I’ll be going to my local support group for the first time in several weeks, my appointments with my therapist have been scheduled lately at the time the group normally meets so I’ve had to choose one or the other. I’m taking a week off from therapy this week so save on funds, so it’ll be group night!
The last time I went, I walked into the coffee shop and someone I went to high school with was working behind the counter. This is a little odd, considering my high school contained about 300 people when I went there and I’m living in the biggest cit in the state now, but c’est la vie!
I will admit (though shamefully so) that I told her I was there for a support group, my gut somehow wouldn’t let me say “bipolar”. I know I’ve been talking a lot about how I’d like to be open with people about having bipolar disorder, but this wasn’t the average situation.
It is a lot more difficult for me to talk about it with people who already know me somehow. People who have already formed some kind of opinion about me. I like to have time to get myself ready for those conversations before I have them, and I was so surprised to see her that I was at a loss for what to say.
A part of me was also thinking it wasn’t appropriate to say it was a bipolar support group because I didn’t want to “out” the people at the group. So it was a bit of a tricky situation.
Anyway, looking forward to tonight.